I ended up writing hubby a crappy letter
The more salient points of it set out below:
Hi Babe
I'm still feeling really tired, despite trying to get plenty of rest whilst in the UK. I'm sure people must think I'm just being lazy. I just can't seem to keep on top of everything, my brain is too tired to remember stuff properly and my body is too tired to move. Even the smallest things feel like hard work, making a cup of tea or getting up to answer the phone, sometimes I haven't even got the energy to talk to people when they phone. It's not like me at all and I am a bit worried, but I am seeing the midwife soon so I will talk to her about it.
It's getting as though I just don't have the energy to cook and eat properly and I know you won't be happy with that, so I must sort myself out. It wouldn't be so bad if I could get a good nights sleep, but baby decides to wake up when i go to bed and then I can't get comfortable. I'm so worried about how good I'll be as a mother once she is born, if I'm this bad now, how crap will I be afterwards!
The flat looks a tip, I've made a start on the kitchen today, but I've got loads to do before mum and dad get here on Friday. I also need to sort out that 2nd sofa bed for ?, but don't panic, I'll just be getting the mattress not the whole bed!! Need to remember to go out and by another fan though as it's very hot here still.
Unfortunately I've not made it to many welfare functions, I've either been too busy trying to get boring stuff like shopping and crap done, or I've just been too tired. So there won't be too many pics of me on the welfare website thingy.
Well, I can honestly say, I'm not enjoying being pregnant one bit. I'm fed up looking fat, wearing shitty clothes, feeling totally ugly, being exhasuted and having constant heartburn. I really hope you will be happy with just one child, because I don't fancy doing this again, especially not on my own. I never thought I would say this and I was so looking forward to being pregnant and even wanted to keep a pregnancy diary for us all (this I haven't done), but the sooner Darcy is born the better.
I'm sorry you have got my bad mood in this letter, but I've just got no one else to talk to about all these feelings and I need let off some steam before I just go mental and lock myself in the flat, with hundreds of boxes of Ritz cheese crackers and crates of beer.
I'm sorry I'm so bad at being pregnant and what a let down I must be for you. All I wanted was for this to be a happy time for us both to share and I feel like I've just been a miserable failure.I love you so much baby and miss you like crazy. I just wish I could hug you and feel you close to me and have you tell me I'm doing alright.
Hi Babe
I'm still feeling really tired, despite trying to get plenty of rest whilst in the UK. I'm sure people must think I'm just being lazy. I just can't seem to keep on top of everything, my brain is too tired to remember stuff properly and my body is too tired to move. Even the smallest things feel like hard work, making a cup of tea or getting up to answer the phone, sometimes I haven't even got the energy to talk to people when they phone. It's not like me at all and I am a bit worried, but I am seeing the midwife soon so I will talk to her about it.
It's getting as though I just don't have the energy to cook and eat properly and I know you won't be happy with that, so I must sort myself out. It wouldn't be so bad if I could get a good nights sleep, but baby decides to wake up when i go to bed and then I can't get comfortable. I'm so worried about how good I'll be as a mother once she is born, if I'm this bad now, how crap will I be afterwards!
The flat looks a tip, I've made a start on the kitchen today, but I've got loads to do before mum and dad get here on Friday. I also need to sort out that 2nd sofa bed for ?, but don't panic, I'll just be getting the mattress not the whole bed!! Need to remember to go out and by another fan though as it's very hot here still.
Unfortunately I've not made it to many welfare functions, I've either been too busy trying to get boring stuff like shopping and crap done, or I've just been too tired. So there won't be too many pics of me on the welfare website thingy.
Well, I can honestly say, I'm not enjoying being pregnant one bit. I'm fed up looking fat, wearing shitty clothes, feeling totally ugly, being exhasuted and having constant heartburn. I really hope you will be happy with just one child, because I don't fancy doing this again, especially not on my own. I never thought I would say this and I was so looking forward to being pregnant and even wanted to keep a pregnancy diary for us all (this I haven't done), but the sooner Darcy is born the better.
I'm sorry you have got my bad mood in this letter, but I've just got no one else to talk to about all these feelings and I need let off some steam before I just go mental and lock myself in the flat, with hundreds of boxes of Ritz cheese crackers and crates of beer.
I'm sorry I'm so bad at being pregnant and what a let down I must be for you. All I wanted was for this to be a happy time for us both to share and I feel like I've just been a miserable failure.I love you so much baby and miss you like crazy. I just wish I could hug you and feel you close to me and have you tell me I'm doing alright.
posted by Charlie at 4:00 pm
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