The Caesarean Question.

After discussions with hubby, have spoken to the hospital and requested a caesarean. This all sounds a bit flipant you might think, well not exactly. Because of my epilepsy there is a medical reason behind this choice. There is also of course the fact that we'll have a date for delivery and hubby may be able to get back here in time for the birth. The will also be the need for him to stay at home longer with me, during the recovery period.
It all seems a bit too much, being pregnant and him being away. It's like I'm having to make choices based on the wrong reasons... well not necesarily wrong reasons... but convenient reasons. Of course even the natural birth scares the hell out of me, the thought of having to go through all that on my own, scares me even more. So, this week I'll be breaking the news to my midwife... I hope she doesn't have a go at me, I'm sure she won't, I'm just too scared of being alone through the natural birth and if I had a seizure... well, that's the whole scary part.